Monday, September 06, 2010

Hypothetical conversations

What if, 'if's' and 'but's' were candy and nuts ? A life lesson I learned a millennium ago was that it's better to have a 'no' than a 'what if.' Meaning that I would rather have a question or query answered with a 'no', rather than spending the rest of my life wondering 'what if.' We all have to make decisions, some times we have time to think about them and some we must make in an instant. But failing to make a choice, while waiting for an answer to come to us is the worst thing we could possibly do. Thus I propose, what will happen when the DREAM Act passes or when it fails this year ?
Bear in mind that this is a private conversation undocumented individuals have had within themselves and with friends during troubled times or when things are close to the wire, like right now. But I had this conversation this weekend in a larger forum and we all shared the positives and negatives of both it passing and failing to pass. For me, this conversation takes on an extremely bleak turn because of everything that comes with the conversation.

Tons of emotional baggage that we all carry and raising our hopes up, setting ourselves up for false hopes. While the details here aren't important, the consensus is one of unity. There is another generation following in our foot steps one way or another, so there will be a need for us to stick around. Not everyone will, but there will be enough of us to make sure the kids behinds will not be lost doing this work.

As for where I fall into all of this, it's quite simple for me really. This is my adoptive home. I know nothing else and this is where I belong. Yes, I have a strong Mexican-American and Chicano/a community that I find solace in and it helps. I love this city like a mother. My personal commitments of wanting to help the next batch of undocumented kids coming up through the world like I did is what makes me wanna stay here. To help them where I was not. It's my own personal crusade if you will. Of course I will travel and see the world, but my world is here in L.A. My love.


kyledeb said...

I just saw this movie, Lorenzo's Oil, and it begins with this quote:

Life has meaning only in the struggle.

Triumph or defeat is in the hands of the Gods …

So let us celebrate the struggle!

—Swahili Warrior Song,

I don't know if that helps you, but it certainly helps me.

Anonymous said...

Querido Random Hero,

He venido siguiendo tu blog por varios meses ya. De hecho, llegue a el a traves de otro blog que se llama "The Entryway"; seguramente habras escuchado del mismo. He querido escribirte desde hace tiempo ya, pero no se porque no lo hice hasta ahora. Tu blog me ha hecho muchas veces pensar y me ha inspirado a seguir creyendo en el porque estoy aqui, levantandome cada mañana lejos de mi familia y del lugar que me vio nacer. Pero, como tu dices, siento que esta tambien es mi casa adoptiva. Solamente queria darte las gracias por escribir de tu vida. Yo tambien estoy yendo al colegio, e intento algun dia recibirme para poder ayudar a los que vienen y se sienten solos y perdidos, como alguna vez me senti yo hace 8 años atras cuando me vine sola. Que se puede decir, verdad? A pesar de todo lo pasado, no cambiaria nada de lo que vivi. Me ha dado perspectiva. Gracias por compartir tus ideas...el internet nos abre caminos. Te deseo mucha salud, y espero algun dia poder pasarme por LA a comer los tamales de tu mama...Cariños de otra inmigrante/medio indocumentada/medio residente desde OH.